The Third Unknown 2

Is this an inner calling? No, it is not. It is a heavy nudge searing through my clouded psyche I want to scream, I just want to rest. I am so tired and annoyed. 

Why does it have to be me? Why can't I just have a quiet, normal life where everything is exactly what it looks like? 

I want to help people. I want to grow and become and be able to handle myself. This is a journey, if I will be of service to those who need this kind of help then I gladly offer my time, no I do not. I am tired. All my life, all my life I have never once felt free. I am tired. I am tired, I need rest. I am so tired.